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Gratitude

Things I'm Grateful For

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I had meant to post this on Friday (As the button says!) but by Friday, I was shattered – we had Holiday Club over at Cardington every evening last week and so I came home, ate and then pretty much went straight to bed!

1. I am grateful that there is a holiday club – it’s hard work and it means that for one week of the school holidays life goes a little bananas but it means that kids hear about the gospel and that’s the main thing. This time we focused on Joseph. I’ve heard the story probably hundred times (And more than that as Joseph and His Technicolour Dreamcoat is one of my favourite musicals!) but it was interesting to hear it again. It was Jaxon’s first holiday club, he was fine on the Monday evening but then he was so fascinated by what was going on around the room that he wouldn’t sleep on the other days.

2. I am grateful for unexpected coffee dates with friends, my gorgeous friend Emma works in a local school so coffee dates during term time get a little complicated (and might have to become dessert dates in the evening or maybe a cake date while watching #GBBO), anyhoo, I posted on Facebook to see if anyone was free for a coffee date on Thursday and we ended up at Coffee with Art in the High Street. It could be my new favourite behind The Fountain – then again the decor in Coffee with Art could make it my new favourite – look at the staircase and this bit behind the counter.

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3. I am grateful for my Mum – while at holiday club she was really helpful when it came to helping me with Jaxon (some how she did that and ran crafts in our group and all sorts!) and on Saturday when I was poorly and had to go to the out of hours doctors she was lovely, she took me to the appointment and waited in the waiting room with Jaxon while I went in.

4. I am grateful for my Dad who took me out on Friday when I needed to run some errands and couldn’t really do it myself as I can’t drive at the moment.

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Gratitude

Things I’m Grateful for….

Sleep

I always knew my sleep would be disturbed with a newborn but I don’t think I realised quite how much! So I’m grateful for the sleep I do get. Especially unexpected naps!

Chris and Our Sidekick

Sometimes they are grumpy but overall they are both lovely and helpful and take care of me whether it’s little like grabbing a glass of water when I need one or holding Jaxon so I can nip to the loo or eat dinner they are both very lovely and helpful.

My Mum

Between the arrival of Jaxon and our washing machine breaking down my Mum has been so amazing!! As I was holding Jaxon while he was asleep yesterday evening, she arrived back with another load of washing that she’d done for us.

Friends from Church

I went to coffee with three girl-friends from church, following coffee I popped to the shops and then headed home. I got part way home and bumped into four friends from church. I pottered along the road to the bus stop but the bus driver drove past me rather than stopping (Admittedly I wasn’t quite at the bus stop but I was only about two metres away so waiting wouldn’t have been a problem). One of the church friends shouted down the street “Would you like a lift?” so she took Jaxon and I home which was lovely although I’m convinced I wasn’t on her route home! Another friend from church is here at our house while I write this post, she’s in the process of making us dinner and has been here earlier in the week helping tidy up the garden which was getting in a bad state.

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Things I'm Grateful For

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Small Achievements That Seem Like Mountains

In case this is the first post you’ve read of mine, I had a C-Section just over a week ago. Part of the recovery is to get up and get moving but not to over do it. You’re only allowed to lift your baby for a while and nothing else (a challenge when you now live with three boys but thankfully my Mum had been on hand to help and a few friends have done washing or things like that for us too).

They are sort of silly and they aren’t massive achievements like running a PB at a running competition, climbing Ben Nevis or the Tri Peaks for charity or lifting your PB at Crossfit Training but to me they do make a difference.

On Monday we went to the Children’s Centre to see the midwife, her day wasn’t going to plan and when given the option to get out of the house for a bit after 2 and a bit days in hospital and two days pretty much in the confines of the house i was jumping at the chance to get out lol. We were sat in the reception and she was running a little late, and of course at that moment in time, Jaxon decided he needed a feed – well there’s only one thing for it.

Achievement Number One: Breastfeeding in a public place (that’s not a hospital).

Jaxon was getting more and more worked up as he was too hot in the onesie he was in but he was also hungry so needed food too. With some assistance from my Mum we stripped him off so he was just in his nappy and then got him into a short sleeved onesie. He cooled down instantly and just seemed happier – he latched on pretty much straight away after that – but I was bricking it! First time in public I was glad my Mum was there to sort of hold my hand – I think if I’d have been on my own I’d have gone and found somewhere to hide!

Achievement Number Two: Breastfeed at my Grandparents house

Yesterday after registering Jaxon’s birth we went to my Grandma’s house to wish her Happy Birthday and drop off cards and presents. She was excited that she got to see Jaxon on her birthday too. While we were there Jaxon was getting hungry and needed a feed. I asked could I go sit in the spare room to feed him, rather than everyone evacuating the living room for me. Well before I could get everything together my Grandad had gone into the kitchen, Grandma had gone to get something from another room and we were left to feed in one of the comfy chairs. When I was settled (and had a muslin to cover up) everyone came back in and we continued to chat about Grandma’s birthday and who had been asking after Jaxon and I amongst other things.

Jaxon, are you comfy?

Achievement Number Three: Walk to the supermarket and back (and manage to remember all the shopping before leaving the supermarket!)

Yesterday afternoon I decided that I was going to walk to the supermarket. It’s about a mile round trip but given the last week it was a goal that I could achieve and my Mum was on hand to come rescue me if I really couldn’t manage to get myself home or if there was a problem. By the looks of it including walking round the store it took me an hour. It certainly didn’t feel like it took that long but I guess that was good that I wasn’t rushing it.

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Watching:
Baby!! He does funny things like twitching in his sleep and clapping his hands together. Watching his little face as he dreams.

Reading:
Notes and notes and notes from the midwifes and other professionals. Also started reading the New Testament from the beginning when feeding. Got most of Matthew Chapter 1 done yesterday.

Listening:
To the cute noises that Jaxon makes while he sleeps. Listening to his breathing too.

Making:
Erm, not a lot lol. I moved my bag upstairs but haven’t touched my crochet since Wednesday. I’ve starting writing thank you letters, I guess that’s making something. Also have been taking heaps of photos.

Feeling:
Tired but so happy. Had a meltdown on Saturday but all in all I’m positive. I spoke to the breastfeeding helpline yesterday and they gave me some good tips that seem to be working.

Planning:
Not a lot – it tends to be what we’re doing that day or the next day. Lots of friends want to meet Jaxon. The in laws came on Friday. The Fairies came on Saturday before dashing off to dance class. V, Bex and Bex’s little boy popped in on their way past. The in laws and my Grandparents came by yesterday. There’s a few people who are possibly coming by in the week to visit us but we’ll play that day by day depending on how things are going.

Loving:
The snuggles I get with Jaxon. The way he holds his hands when I breastfeed (or attempt to!). The way that Chris scoops him up and cares for him. He pulls faces and makes funny noises when Jaxon starts to get grumpy. I just can’t wait until Jaxon can respond and laugh back at Daddy’s silly antics! (Not that I’m wishing the time away – clearly I want to enjoy each stage as it comes.

Welcome to the World Little One!

I have a whole heap to write about what happened and how it happened and when it happened but for now.

Welcome to the world Blueberry!! Haha no not going to be actually called Blueberry, this little one is called Jaxon Albert Byng Johnson. He was born on Wednesday and weighed in at 9lb 14.5oz by C Section (see things to write about!!)

Jaxon Albert Byng Johnson

For now I wrote a list of things I am grateful for, I had a little meltdown last night and needed to regroup so started this list….

My Mum and Dad for being on standby since Saturday to help us out with Our Sidekick when I went into labour (and the practice attempts it seems!). My Dad for attempting to sleep at our house in one to the Poang chairs, I am pretty sure you got zero sleep that night and somehow still went to work the next day. You both came and rescued us the following night when I had a meltdown, Mum fell asleep in our bed and was out like a light, I don’t think Dad slept at all that night and again went to work the next day!! (Superstar!)

My Mum for popping into town for an item of clothing that I sort of needed to be able to come home and delivering it to the hospital too. For offering to come to sit with me this morning so Chris can go to church for a little while and take Jaxon for a quick visit too.

Our Sidekick, you were out the front playing with your friend when I got home from the hospital you dropped what you were doing to help me out of the car, when I pottered into the living room and then turned round to get the post you told me off and sent me upstairs – I think you followed me up the stairs to make sure that I made it there in one piece. You sat with me while we ate dinner so that I wasn’t alone while Chris ate dinner with Jaxon, his parents and sister.

The NHS – people do complain, I know I have and I know I did on Friday when we were waiting to be discharged but I’ll tell you something, Bedford Hospital Midwifery team were amazing this week looking after Jaxon and I. There’s the two student midwifes who were so good, if they didn’t know the answer or wasn’t 100% sure they’d go and find out the information and come back. To the anaesthetist’s assistant who walked me through how my injection was going to be done and then talked me through how to sit as it was being done. To the surgeon who brought Jaxon into the world and took the time to say hello to Jaxon. To Ruth, Laura, Liz and all the other midwifes who came to check on me, take my obs, check me over and answer questions amongst other things.

The lovely friends who have been round to see Jaxon, Chris and I, thank you for coming, thank you for your flying visits and understanding that I wanted to see you but couldn’t cope for long periods of time (being a mummy is exhausting sometimes lol). Thank you for the presents you have brought us and the offers of help if I need them. My favourite was “even if it’s just so you can take a shower I’ll come cuddle Jaxon”.

To “Auntie” Kewey thank you for sending me silly pictures when I was post-meltdown, for pictures of your celebratory tea and the Blueberry muffins eaten in celebration of Jaxon’s arrival and for the encouraging words sent via text to me. I know you had a pooey week and at some points could have probably shut the world out and just sulked but you were there and amazing even from nearly a hundred miles away!!!

(Okay, blueberry muffins might be needed……Erm, whoever visits next do you fancy going via the supermarket?)

And last but no means least……

To Chris, firstly I love you, I don’t think I’ve said it in the last few days between all the crazy that’s been happening. You’ve done a heap of stuff and I’ve probably missed some but here is the short list that I remember….. loaded the dishwasher and the washing machine, you made dinner (which we then ate nearly an hour later cos of a feeding hiccup), you’ve changed more nappies in the last four days than I have (admittedly I’ve done the feeds which don’t work so well if you try!), gotten up with Jaxon when I was so out of it I didn’t know he was even awake (bad Momma!), slept/rested your eyes in an uncomfy hospital chair on Wednesday night so that I could recover and we could both take care of Jaxon together, you walked to the supermarket at 10pm on Saturday night to get some bits after I had a meltdown, I love your enterprising nature when they didn’t have quite the product we were looking for – the alternative worked wonders and at a fraction of the price (there clearly is money in maternity products because as soon as you market something as maternity you can increase the price!!)

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Watching:
Doctor Who (started the Matt smith episodes on Tuesday)
House of Cards (after Becca posted about it – gave up part way through Episode 1 – think I prefer Aaron Sorkin’s take on “fictional” politics).
The Heat

Reading:
Knitting Yarns edited by Ann Hood

Listening:
Haven’t really been out in the car or if I have Chris has been driving so we’ve either been chatting or local radio is on. Around the house we’ve had UCB on.

Making:
Working on the stripy blanket when the temperature has been a little lower. I’ve also been knitting a blanket which is smaller so doesn’t cook me at the same time!

Feeling:
Sort of down. I think it’s just frustration and fed up ness I hit 39 weeks last Wednesday which means that tomorrow my baby is due. I am grateful beyond belief that I can carry a baby and be a Momma because I know how many ladies would kill to be in my shoes right now.

Planning:
Finishing up the packing ready for hospital. Planning the contingency for Our Sidekick and updating our Supporting Social Worker as Our Sidekick’s Social worker is on holiday.

Loving:
The sunshine and the gorgeous weather but wish it would be just a bit less muggy. Loving all the time I can spend with Chris, at first he was getting on my nerves as I think he hadn’t realised how much effort everything takes when you’re this close to popping out a baby.

Dear Blueberry – 39 Weeks

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Dear Blueberry,

Today is 39 weeks. That means next week you’re “due”. Uncle Richard and I were both born early whereas Daddy was born late so I figure you might be on time but I guess we will see. You’ll appear when you’re ready.

On Saturday we had a worry. You hadn’t really moved between me getting up and Daddy and I thinking about lunch. I laid on the sofa, played you music (I played Bellowhead – I figured it was lively and should wake you up!) and even Daddy got me a really cold glass of water. He started with chilled water from the fridge and added about five ice cubes to the mix. Even then you didn’t move. We rang the hospital and they said come in. I phoned Grandpa and asked him to come wait for Our Sidekick if we weren’t home in time. He made a joke that I was calling to tell him and Grandma that I was going into labour well actually I wasn’t.

We got to the hospital and I was hooked up for the machine again. It was like once the midwife had a poke you decided to wake up and move like someone was tickling you to death. You kept moving and didn’t stop. We were discharged and sent home. You, me and Daddy went to get lunch then came home for a bit and waited for Our Sidekick to arrive home.

At my last appointment, the midwife decided that I needed an extra appointment so I’m off to see her again today. I’m hoping she’ll say that you’re engaged more than you were last week. We’re convinced that you’ve dropped but what do we know – the midwife is the medically trained one.

Daddy made me go for a walk yesterday. The idea being you might be encouraged along a bit – I think he’s very very excited to meet you and wants you to hurry up and get here already!

See you very soon little one

Love you

Mummy

1,000 Things: Another Part…..

Following Friday’s mad tidy of the summerhouse a few weeks back, Saturday was the turn of the bedroom and the nursery. Mum and I had already organised that she’d come and help get the bits finished that still needed work. For example we had the cot up and the clothes away but the nappies were stacked in piles and not really organised.

Nursery 1 - cot in place

Ready for a resident

We cleared out a heap more books and some clothes as well as a bunch of stuff that had just been accumulating rather than being dealt with so then we had a super tidy bedroom too. The challenge is now to keep it this tidy – it’s slacked a bit at the moment but going to get it done today.

While my Mum was here my Dad came to help too – as we put it “we need a gopher!”. We asked him to come and run stuff between upstairs, downstairs and the summerhouse. It was easier than us doing it – I’m not exactly managing the stairs all that well and my mum struggles with the stairs anyway (especially as ours doesn’t have a handrail!)

We decided that the wardrobe needed to be reassembled. Chris did have a whole plan but by taking it down we didn’t have enough storage – so who do you call? You call Grandad cos he’s the man that can. (Chris sometimes disses how close I live to my family but sometimes like when you need extra hands on deck it’s really helpful!) I rang Grandad and asked if he could come help. I said about him coming after lunch but I think he pretty much dropped what he was doing to come help me out. Dad and him had to assemble the wardrobe at a funny angle as there wasn’t quite enough room to assemble it as Grandad would have normally done but somehow it worked and they got it sorted.

Bedroom sorted!!

Dear Blueberry – 38 Weeks

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Dear Blueberry,

It’s getting a bit cramped round these parts now. I’ve worked out that it I sit a certain way then I’m fine but if I sit another way then I end up all achy as there’s not enough room between my hips and ribs. The other option is I just give up and lie down in front of the TV and stay there for the rest of the day.

Things like loading the washing machine and dishwasher are getting harder – the boys are pretty good. If I load the top tray they will load the bottom one.

You’ve been kicking more vigorously and sometimes get sort of stuck – I’ll end up with a knee or elbow sticking out at a funny angle.

On Sunday, I went with Grandma, Grandpa and Uncle Rich to cheer on Auntie Heather at Race for Life. I think all the walking and all the standing up I did upset you a bit because I had stomach ache and then when I walked back to the car after lunch I got stronger pains – as they stopped almost as quick as they started I didn’t worry but I’ll mention it to the midwife today at my appointment.

On Monday Chris and I went to visit our friend and our new goddaughter. We spent like two hours just chatting. Our friend and Chris were discussing my bump. They are convinced you’ve dropped. You got the hiccups at one point and I could feel it in the top of the bump but could also feel it in my lower back so I’m pretty sure you’ve dropped. Shall we take a sweepstake on when you decide to appear?

Yesterday something was going on and I think you wanted to make your presence known. Our Sidekick, Chris and I had a disagreement to the point that that we were all quite cross at each other. Well I think you wanted to join in too because there was a massive achy pain in my abdomen and that plus the falling out made me cry. I headed upstairs and put on some music and laid down to try and calm down. It did go away and didn’t come back again. I think it’s your way of getting ready to make your entrance into the world.

Today we’ve got all sorts going on, in the morning we’re off to meet with various social work people to be re-approved as foster carers for Our Sidekick (I’ve promised our social worker that I’ll keep my legs crossed so whatever you do don’t decide to come in the morning!). In the afternoon I have my midwifes appointment and then in the evening I have a holiday club meeting – that’ll be another thing to tick off “last holiday club meeting before Blueberry arrives”.

Friday… (And a trip to hospital)

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Fetal Monitor, Pulse Oximeter and Blood Pressure

Hello there.

How’s your day going?

Mine started fairly lazy. Chris and I went for lunch instead of our normal day off breakfast date. We ended up at one the local restaurants that we usually frequent. I had my salad and started on my main course (while Chris did various work bits that he probably shouldn’t have had to organise on his day off lol).

Part way through lunch I started to get flashing lights in front of my eyes a bit like a migraine but without the pain and the nausea (that I normally associate with a migraine). We decided that if I still had the flashing lights then we’d go and seek medical advice.

Part way through lunch the flashing lights changed – although they were still there it was more like fuzziness around my peripheral vision. Having googled changes in vision and no pain I was concerned (as anyone would be!). Chris had a whole conversation with me about three 50p coins he had in his wallet. I remember the conversation and picking up the coins but felt like I wasn’t really there. It was like I was completely cut off from what was happening. We paid for our meal and I was in a state. I couldn’t entirely describe how I felt and we decided that we needed medical advice. I tried the midwife but the number I had on my notes was wrong. (I’m not sure if I read it wrong or Chris misread the Midwife’s hand writing because I have the right number in my phone!).

We tried the day unit at the hospital but there was no answer, so we called the Delivery Suite – I was trying to explain how I was feeling and things like that but wasn’t doing a good job. When I managed to explain enough, the nurse said to come into the day unit and I would be seen from there.

As we’d walked to the restaurant Chris left me sat on the bench outside and went back inside to tell someone I was there. In the end the manager and a customer (I think) came outside to wait with me and keep an eye on me. While Chris had been inside I rang my Mum. She’s well trained in “How to Deal with Hannah when she’s sick”. She dropped what she was doing and came down to meet me.

Chris dropped me off outside Cygnet Wing, while he parked the car, I headed for the Day Unit once I’d managed to figure out which floor it was on. I walked onto the ward and headed for the Day Unit Reception. Thankfully a lovely nurse noticed me and that I was in a bit of a state. I explained what was happening and she pointed me to a seat. Another nurse came and chatted to me and explained that they would have to put me on the delivery bit of the ward for now as they didn’t have any space in the Day Unit. I didn’t mind I just wanted to make sure that both baby and I were okay.

I was hooked up to a BP machine and my pressure was taken every 15 minutes. They also did another test to make sure that it wasn’t the beginning of preeclampsia. Thank The Lord it wasn’t!

I was moved along the corridor back onto the Day Unit and was hooked up to a fetal monitor, pressure cuff and a pulse oximeter (yes my inner nerd was having a field day reading the results between having my eyes closed and relaxing). At one point Blueberry had the hiccups which could be heard on the monitor too. I think Chris was a little freaked as it was a funny noise but I knew what it was

While sat in the hospital I messaged Kewey to let her know what was going on. She told me to chill out so I sent her the picture on the left. She then replied with the picture on the right!

Gotta chill out!

We were discharged about 5pm and came home (via the petrol station to make sure we had fuel in case of an emergency). Our Sidekick met me at the door when I got home. He was worried about me and gave me a mahoosive hug. I’m now hanging out in front of the TV watching some random film that I found. Might do some knitting or crochet.